Simple story of an ordinary meeting which caused

extraordinary hesitation

E.J.

My grandma used to warn me about different things

which might happen in life. She wanted to make

sure that when they occurred I would recognize them,

and beware, so they wouldn't hurt me. She would tell

stories about people and places, about mistakes

she had made in life and about her dreams which

have never come true.

One day I arrived for my usual visit. The day

was like any other; a little gloomy with a few rays of

light falling and brightening her face. She fixed her

hair that day, dressed up smartly and sat in her

armchair smoking a pipe. She sat brooding for a long while,

then said, "Today I would like to share with you a

story of someone who was very dear to my heart.

Someone who will always mean a great deal to me.

Silence fell, and grandma inhaled a little plum

tobacco. The atmosphere was dignified, filled with

seriousness and secrecy.

She told me a story of a boy who found himself in

The situation that he did not quite understand,

which had to do with a

girl who was there with him that very evening.

Due to a series of events... one thing led to a series of events.

They started to talk and made time stop for awhile.

The world started to spin, vibrations were right,

there was nothing more they wanted than just to stay and

wonder about the mystery of life. They cast a spell

over time and themselves without knowing and

predicting how difficult it will be to cope with the

fact that they suddenly begin to exist for one

another. In that very moment both of them were very

present, conscious. They were participating in the

conversation (like people should every minute of their

lives no matter where they are and what they do) with

engagement, burning interest,

chemistry and dedication. They both had their lives,

their concerns, wishes and visions for the future.

Though not really .

He said:” Plans make me”

She: never knows how will her life look like so she

let things happen but always is in control of not

getting stuck. She needs her freedom to breathe.

That is  one of the reasons why she shuns commitment, never enters

into agreements, or makes promises

that she can not keep.

He surrounded her with his World. His music, his writing,

his authors, poems, people that he knows, unclear

situations, with his trust in her.

They started to open doors for one another, carefully

and firmly.

They were both trying to control it but somewhere deep

inside did not care.

They knew!

She did not know how to interpret what was happening.

She would ask him different questions like a child who

needs to feel safe. She believed she had found a soul

mate that will always be there for her. Both had come

a long, long way until that very meeting. They had journeyed

through isolated countries and experiences to meet there

for a little while. To meet and give something to each

other that no one can ever take away.

My grandma started to cry without my understanding

what was really happening. She wiped away tears,

and muttered some kind of entreaty which helped her calm

down. A few moments later she asked for forgiveness due to

the flash of uncontrolled emotion and continued…

You see, she whispered, amazingly enough these two

young, old people were trying to discover how

they would want to spent these few short moments

that were given on the Earth.

They strongly believed that

they had touched the Truth and the Destiny. It scared

them on one hand and filled with a Hope on the other.

Even though they did not know whether they were cut out for one another

they kept listening to the music.

They did not need to talk then, they just felt and knew,

and appreciated the moment of a mystery and unknown future.

They knew that there would come a time when they will

have to let each other go without regret, bitterness

or worries.

They have grown into each other and become one.

They will never be the same again.

They are both very complex human beings. Sometimes

they think they know more than anybody. Other times

they just feel and rely on their instincts and intuition.

They are like animals on one on side and sophisticated

creatures on the other.

They might be just simple people who seek the mystery

of life.

They like to prove the impossible, fight with a thing

without a face, challenge themselves and then dream

like a baby. Personalities of contradictions make them

attract one another. Neither can resist spending the next few

minutes  in the car talking, laughing and holding

hands.

Grandmother wanted to say much more but got very tired. Her

cat jumped on her knees and they both fell asleep. I

covered her with a blanket and left the place. We’ve

never talked about it after that day. It wasn’t

necessary